A few days ago, I wrote about my therapist and how her suggestions were outlandish and astonishing. I still stand by that sentiment and definitely do feel that her suggestions were rushed and with the objective of providing actionable advice to me - this might be an institutional flaw rather than her individual approach.
However, there have been numerous instances since my accident that have got me thinking - I need to stay alone. It’s something I’ve never done, but it’s also something I was on the verge of doing in 2021. Regardless, this is how life turned out and suddenly living alone seems much more dangerous.
But I think I have to live alone. That’s the only way I can get relatives off my back. Suddenly, because I am handicapped I feel like everyone feels like they have an unrestricted right to give me advice on each and everything. A bit tired of this approach, of trying to baby feed me basic things.
What’s my plan?
I haven’t really come up with a plan just yet. I’m thinking I might live alone after 3-4 years, but planning so far into the future is nearly impossible for me right now. This is mainly because I don’t know what medical complications could arise in the next 3-4 years. It’s a bit tiring, let me tell you.
Being caught between relatives who suddenly find themselves in a place of importance and my personal handicap on the other hand, which does not allow me to be completely independent is a problem.
Not sure how to solve this - I could make the jump and go independent. If anything this is the right moment for that - at the age of 32, this is the right moment to go independent.
Food for thought for sure. How feasible, I think it’s just my own fear that’s holding me back. In fact, Quincy hardly does anything here anymore. I can do most of the stuff on my own. And it makes little sense to be so dependent on others. The only thing I really really need is a car - a car to go around town, especially to locations that are woefully close to my residence. It doesn't make sense to go to a location that is 1 km away in scorching heat and with so much effort. I think a car is definitely something I want to buy, but let's see on the finances. I am more interested in going to other countries and traveling than the car - but again, it depends heavily on how much of an effort it causes me.
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